Bad Moon on the Rise

So here we go again. Day two of horrible events that are making life just that much more difficult. I am told that the reason why I had my loans taken off was due to not satisfactory academic achievement and now I have to pay them all the loan's back, pell grant, and any extra that was given to me. So I have to go apply for a loan from the bank today.... I hope that I at least get some sort of assistance from them. Secondly as I climb out of my house to drive off to work, I was doing just fine... life was feeling ok even though there is a problem with money. I hop in my car, crank it over, sit there for a minute to warm up, and then I try to drive away. Flat tire. Thats right a flat tire.

Now I have to go to the bank apply for a loan, get my tires replaced, and try to find out what to do with money situations. The best part of the story is I work at 10:00... I had to call in so there is money lost when I can't go to work. Its like either A) life hates me B) God wants to teach me something or C) I just have the worst luck. I am assuming its all of the above.

Any way I am just kinda tired of trial after trial right now, its like somehow my plans in life are not coming out right and there is a lot of weight on my shoulders that I don't know how to fix it right now.

Finances

So here we go onto a trip and a story of my life and the world of money. I hate money. I think it is retarded and only causes fights, problems, and stress. Look at all the good that comes from money. We have people that fight and kill just to get more. Those with more money act like they rule the world. Lastly when one is short on money for something their life goes in shambles and they become desperate to find out a solution. This can lead to serious consequence.

Don't get me wrong I am doing well financially. I am stable and able to pay my bills and still collect savings. The Problem with my finances is my schooling right now. This is the most redundant school that I have attended... I understand I am partial to blame.

Last semester wasn't my best semester at the school I am attending. I had a rough time studying and I fell ill for the first two weeks of classes and I even had to call in sick to work for almost the whole period I was ill. So my grades sank no matter what I tried. My classes were based on attendance and missing over 6 days in each class resulted in my grade going from an A to a C.... so even after trying to do makeup homework my grades weren't passing... I failed it out.

now this is where it gets bad. I apply for the spring semester and the school says I have to file for academic Probation to improve study habits. I agree and pass the test to reapply for classes in the spring. Everything went fine. I was approved for my loans, I got a change check. All was paid for, books were ok and I felt comfortable. Well I then review my finances tab on our internal College website and it claims that I owed fifteen hundred dollars. I review the reason why. The pell grant that I was given and that had already been cut in a check they claimed that I needed to pay it back. Ok I understand if I didn't have satisfactory grades for a pell grant then they shouldn't have approved a pell grant and cut the check in the first place. Luckily I had all the money stored in savings.

Here is the catch. Even though I had all this approved and I was clear for the loans, today they rebuked my loans and say I owe over 6K.... 6K! I don't have that money, not even per semester does it cost 6K.... where am I supposed to come up with the money for this problem. Next on my hate is my phone is dead so I can't even call to find out what is going on in the finances office of the campus. So I have to wait until I get to a charger after my classes, but with my cramped schedule I have no free time. I am either studying, or working 32 hours a week. Combined with studying, school, and work I have roughly 20 hours a week to myself. Of these 20 hours I can't be selfish because I also like to spend time with my wife, so I dedicate at least 10 of these hours to her. That leaves me with 10 hours in a 7 day week. That is just a little more than 1 hour a day. This hour normally is at about 11 PM. EVERYTHING IS CLOSED.

I am so frustrated right now cause this means that I have to take time off work to find out why my college is trying to screw me over financially and mess up my credit score. I wish that money didn't exist and that I didn't have to fret about these problems. I already have a huge workload as it is....

Music

I am a music enthusiast.  I have to say that I get all excited and butterflies when I see new albums of my favorite bands coming out.  I recently have dedicated my homepage of my web browser to PureVolume.com  Its a site focused on the new bands.  Mainly alternative rock but it has other fields in it if you are interested in peaking your head over (Both of the bands that I am promoting on this blog have pages with songs there).  Recently I saw posts from a band that made me super excited.  I then was able to listen to a sample portion and it has a lot of potential to be amazing!  Panic at the disco is a good band and I hope to get the fan base that is full of crazed enthusiasts like me.

Here is a link if you feel like checking them out a bit www.purevolume.com/panicatthedisco

anywhom as a side note of my music addiction I have thousands of gigabytes of Cd's on my computer.  I then choose to carry a few with me on my iPod, and I also have my songs all lined up on my laptop and work computer so I constantly have music at any given moment of the day.  Well due to the fact that I have an iPod I need to have iTunes.  This is a nightmare.  I hate that program so much, and it takes hours and days to try to organize your music.  Once that task is done its actually a very relaxed media player to use for every day tasks.  But when you import 80 plus gigs all at one time it takes forever to assign albums, song titles, and not to mention the horrid cluster of unknown artists that I get every time I copy music from my external hard drive.  So I finally organized my Work computer and am about 3/4 done with my laptop... but I still have my main personal computer to clean up.... oh the troubles of my life due to my vices.

Listen to My world

School Time

I have taken the liberty of attending college.  Sadly I had the horrible experience with an electronic online based math class that resulted in a 0.2% less than the required grade to pass the class.  I then attempted to retake the class this current semester but they said I was under qualified and I am now in a lower math class than my actual ability.  I attended my class for the first time last week on Tuesday.  The professor didn't even know what Pi is... I am stuck in this class for a whole semester.  That is time that I cannot take back that I have to dedicate every Tuesday and Thursday.  What a dilemma I am in.  So to keep myself occupied today I pulled out my handy dandy laptop and began to work a bit on the story that I am working on as I previously mentioned in my prior blog.  I actually finished chapter one and I am almost done with chapter two.  I am feeling quite proud of myself.

Also for other note last night Fake Safety Tips got together and started working a bit on the new sound for the new album and we think we might have found an idea that we were looking for.  I just need to work a bit on the engineering of the piece.  I will soon be posting music on the blog for all of those who wish to listen to some of our work : )

I wish too all of you that have had to deal with horrible classes in any schooling that you have a wonderful day and remember that you are the one with the control of what you do during these courses.  If you choose to sleep that is just squandering your ability to become creative or smarter in dreams that will never come true, where you can realize actual dreams while giving off the appearance that you are actually a learning enthusiast.  So whether you do art during classes, writing, or working on other classes homework that I say is the best way to waste your time.

Once again I am not much of an enthusiast for others knowing my ideology but I figured family and friends deserve a bit more contact with me than what they are currently receiving.

Introductions

Well I am not much of a journal keeper, or am I much of an enthusiast for sharing every thing I do to people that have dedicated time to sit down and stalk me (Facebook, twitter, etc.). But for the sake of keeping reality in check for family members and friends who are interested in seeing where my life is progressing I will take the time out of my life to share with you my passions and desires.

For those of you who have not yet had the displeasure of getting to know me I will share a tidbit of my ideology. I am a dreamer who believes in living big. I love music, movies, dances, plays, shows, magic, and anything that mystifies and creates an alternate reality of what we are truly living. I aspire to be an artist in my life, no matter the aspect.

As a child my sister and I grew up and decided to write a story together that I have actually harbored for my own and decided to create it as my own. I hope that she isn't upset with me since she has been practically pouring over her own story for the past 10 years with one of her childhood friends.

Secondly I also write music with a friend of mine where we have actually recorded and I produced the CD. we are reaching a large fan base online and you can check out our music free on Facebook, last. FM, and pure volume. We have a small radio station set up online and we are working on a second album.

This site you are on is actually part of my second side project band titled a paper heart parade. A solo project not meant to overshadow the original band or take any thunder from it.

lastly I am an artist. I love drawing and watercoloring. nothing too special but I will share links at the end of this post if you feel like spending a couple more minutes exploring what I do, since I am more a visionary creature as apposed to one who is known through contextual meeting.

If you have questions I probably won't answer them but I hope that if you do decide to stalk me on this little posting that you get some pleasure and enjoyment from my rattlings. As for now I bid you Adieu my friends.

Links:

Fake Safety Tips the Band

http://www.purevolume.com/fakesafetytips

http://www.facebook.com/fakesafetytips

My Personal Art

http://feyer-brand.deviantart.com/