06 September 2011

Christmas in September???

Well I haven't posted for a while so I will post a more technical post this week.  It has been a rather enjoyable "Christmas Like" Weekend.  On Friday I was able to obtain a piano from a friend named Holly.  I haven't missed a day of playing since it entered our tiny apartment.  it nestles up in our kitchen and almost makes the spacious room seem cramped, but it is well worth the space to get my creative flow working.

Secondly I have a tablet that seems a bit outdated now.  It is the first generations of "MID" [meaning Mobile Internet Device] so it sadly weighs around 1.6 LBS which is hefty for a tablet, and it was stuck with Eclair 2.0 Android ROM.  Now for any of you who know anything about Android operating systems you know that is outdated.  For those you don't have a clue what I am talking about let me give you a break down.

Android consists of different versions of the operating system.  Its like Windows or Mac [and for the techies like me Linux].  They have had different versions of the OS[Operating System] available since the first release to today.  The older the OS the worse the operating system ran.  So for Example if you were to sit down at a PC with Windows 7 installed and mess around for a bit and get used to the operating system and the look and feel of the computer, and then someone were to pull out an old white chunky box that ran windows 95 you would hate the old machine and rather want the newer one for its capabilities.
Here is the old windows 95 Computer [sorry I couldn't find a picture of a real life one so enjoy the google image searched one =D ]

Here is the windows 7 Beastly Alienware computers of awesomeness.

Like Mac fans out there, if you Remember the old computer that was combined with the monitor that ran I can't even remember the name of the device.  It was not even called a "Mac" back them but an "Apple" or "Macintosh" [not a single person now days even calls them Macintosh thats too long of a name] verses the new hip and loved devices that society has embraced and deemed "You aren't cool unless you own a Mac" or if you enter any major production studios [Film, Music, Art, ETC] there will always be a mac present.

Old School garbage Mac

New age weighs nothing smooth Macbook
And I am sure you think I am rambling and posting garbage info, well its your fault for reading my blog.  Any whom the point boils down that my poor tablet was running an outdated version of the OS. Here is a list of android operating systems so you can become familiarized with the names and why this is important

1.5 Cupcake
1.6 Donut
2.0, 2.1 Eclair
2.2 Froyo [Frozen Yogurt]
2.3 Gingerbread
2.4 Ice Cream Sandwich [not yet released]

well my device came with Eclair 2.0.  This operating system didn't support anything. Also another issue is my  processor on the tab is known as "MIPS" which isn't the standard for tablets and phones with the android OS.  So that means I don't get Adobe Flash due to a non supported platform, and Netflix won't even think about making a port because they are Netflix.  But I couldn't even access the Google Market because Velocity Micro didn't make support for the OS and submit the info to Google to have them give us access.

Well this boils down finally to my point.  Velocity Micro finally released 2.2 Froyo for my device, and with the update I was able to follow the step by step guide on www.slatedroid.com to Root my device [which gives me super user commands and also the ability to work around the firmware, and OS]  and of course GET THE GOOGLE MARKET WORKING!  I was so excited I downloaded at least 40 apps within the first hour.  So now I am living a bit more in the fancy life with my tablet.  Though as stated its still a MIPS processor which means still no Adobe Flash, Adobe Air, or Netflix, but I am one step closer to having a semi normal Tablet instead of people mocking it as a good paper weight.
Velocity Cruz T103
And lastly I finally got a new Power Supply for my computer due to a radiator leak which burned out my old one.  Well I have a new Radiator and a new power supply so I am back up to gaming.  I just got Deus Ex Human Revolutions.  If you Haven't Heard of the Deus Ex [God Like] series you are completely missing out.  CHECK IT OUT NOW AND BUY THE GAME.  Its completely epic and I love it to death.  Part 3 is more like a part 0 so you can understand the original story "better".  Personally I think it was just a desire to make a new CyberPunk game.

Here is the Cover of the PC Game
Also I got F.E.A.R. 3.  Another classic series. Though I do have to warn this is a horror game and isn't made for the feint of heart, I would have to say I am an addict.  Oh how I remember staying up til 3 in the morning playing the game just to get it over so I didn't have nightmares.  Now I am onto part three and I still get the chills when little Alma pops up here and there with your flashlight flickering out and Phantoms attacking you in the dark.

And the Cover to this game
As for that, that is my update in life.  I will get some more posted soon.  I think I am going to push myself to at least update you guys once a week instead of once every two months or so.

12 July 2011

With a starry brush, paint the dusk venetian blue

Well I decided its time for people to get to know my desk mates for the first time.  I have been stationary in my job for almost two years now.  I started September 8th 2009, and I have no further plans as of now for change.  So with small purchases and stocking stuffers my desk has been spruced up enough for me to at least crack a smile every now and again from the little buddies hanging around.

Lets start from left to right.  On the left I have a photo gallerium of my dating days with my wife.  We haven't printed new pictures yet, but the nostalgia that these photos produce is still worth having them on my desk.   Eventually I would love to exchange that for an electronic picture frame so I could have more photos with me.

Next up we have the quote of the day office calendar.  I love that series.  My wife and I have watched they first six seasons 5 times through beginning to end.  It can always lead to people asking if its appropriate to have at my desk until they read a quote and walk away laughing.  Almost everyone here can appreciate the series.

Next on the list we have our desktop dart board complete with magnetic darts.  Its rather entertaining to have someone walk over and start trying to play a quick game with me between calls, until of course I start getting too many calls or when they realize they burned a good five minutes standing by my desk.

And then we have the dead Fred pen holder.  People steal my pens.  Whether they mean to or not it happens quite frequently.  So I brought in my own gel pen since it seems that no one here appreciates how much darker a gel pen writes.   This is also insurance for my pen since no one really likes it.  Secondly I have a special pen holder which would make someone take a conscious effort to remove my pen.  Plus its good stress relief when I get frustrated with people to stab the little Guy over and over with my pen.

Panning right on my L shaped desk I have my Lego calendar.   No I have no need for two calendars, but the fact that I was a Lego fiend as a child doesn't help much. I love building this every month and often times people have to swing by the cubicle just to see how it looks this month. Lastly we have the dismember me zombie plushie. He is a gag to have at the desk. People can't figure out why there are extra parts just lying around my speakers until I pull him out and show them the grotesque display of internals strewn across the desk. Rather entertaining if I do say so myself.

11 July 2011

Biking to work

Well as you know I bike to work everyday for the most part.  So much money on gas has been saved.  Its been about two full months now and I feel so much better about my day when I roll in to work.  The bike to work month was rather difficult due to weather issues but June and July have been wonderful. 

For the most part I felt like updating for the first time in a long time.  Things are always fluctuating like normal.  We have our ups and Downs but I think that is just how our lives are supposed to be.

23 May 2011

I want to Ride my Bicycle

Well today Drew said he wanted to get out and ride some bikes. So below I have posted up some group pictures of the complimentary beach house Cruisers. We also took pictures of local art and of Course the Yaquina Head lighthouse. That light house is the same that was featured in the Feature Film "The Ring". Of course they CG'd the buildings and barn found in the film, but the amazing lighthouse is still the same building. Secondly that is the largest Lighthouse found in Oregon. Mind you that is according to my knowledge which might be a bit flawed.

But the cruisers were some old style huffys with worn down seats. mine included a Tire that needed to be Trued (Aka it was bent like none other and you couldn't even figure out how it didn't manage to pop while I rode it) And Drew's bike had the most atrocious noise made by his fender. It was classic as we rolled down to the coffee shop and sipped some cocoas in the brisk 11 in the morning air in Oregon. Visiting the sites for about a half an hour we rolled on home. I would have to say that today was a rather eventful day.

Kite Flying

I figured I would get some Photos of our kite adventure posted to the blog so you at home or around the world can enjoy the little time we spent on the Beach. I picked up a newer type of Kite when we visited Oregon when I was a kid. My dad and I both kinda flew them and got into them. It was pretty hard to get started out, but I have the hang of it now. Mind you I am no professional but I can say I really enjoy flying stunt kites.

In these images you will see Aubrey, Debbie, Drew and Myself. All new additions to my family and I really have enjoyed the time we have spent
together this trip =].

If you want to see some of the photos in larger format I can upload them elsewhere so you can see some of the colors that we have going on. The beach is beautiful, and the skies have been so clear for us that today we even went swimming in the frozen Pacific Ocean. I would have to say though that the Pacific is my favorite if it came down to having a choice.

Anyway I am about to post another blog of our little bike ride this morning. So as I said earlier if
you want any more info, of photos just comment below and I will respond as swiftly as my phone will allow me to =] Godspeed and enjoy your wonderful week everyone!

12 May 2011

Biking to work

So the month of May is National Bike to Work month. It focuses on saving gas, energy, and keeping our united states citizens healthy since we are a rich and fat people who get lazy because we are used to our perks that we have such as cars, and electronics. Don't get me wrong I love having these little benefits in life but excessive amounts of these little pleasures soon take over and we lose who we as humans are.

Any whom, I have almost biked to work 70% of this month, sadly a little speed bump of rain and snow made it hard to get 100%. But my goal is to get up to 90% by the end of the month. We will see how I do, since vacation is going to cut into my percentages. That actually makes it a bit easier also cause the weather forecast says it should be semi cold in Idaho while we are sitting in the already semi chilled Oregon Coast.

I will post up pics when I am done with the bike to work month. I got a participants t-shirt and a reflector that gets discounts to local businesses that are participating in the event. So if you have a bike and are willing to take a bit more out of your day, make sure your business is participating and you can get some free stuff also =]

05 May 2011

ISU Destroys Dreams

I would have to say that I thought I was coping with this whole debt issue and the semester problems that were going on. But nope. I just realized that I can't afford to get my wife anything for the next 2 years. Idaho State University is by far the worst joke of a school that I have stepped foot in. Its upsetting that I now have an ensured future of working in a dead end call center job for the next 2 or more years depending on how much of my paychecks I can scrape out to give to that school.

25 March 2011

Prologue to Baelki

Well here is the Brain child of my sister and me. We worked on this a bit as we grew up and I decided to take and run with the idea and create a new world and order. She drew out the routes maps and designed a character, where I have then taken the story and developed plot, characters, and the point of why I wanted to make this. I will post below the rough draft of the Prologue to the first tome of the series of Baelki.

Tome one is known as "Glory Broken" Feed back is always welcome and please feel free to post comments and concerns about my literary skills, as you are all acquainted you know that I am not an author or pretend to be this is merely a brief work to get something on paper in a finalized manner. So sit back relax and enjoy!

Rough Draft Prologue.

Summer breezes filled the landscapes that rolled across the hills of Abburth. Thaddeos Bolnor swept his dirty matted hair across his forehead. The air was so heated that sweat dripped from every inch of his face. How much he hated the idea of having to travel cross country by animal back. He was not successful in getting an alliance with the dwarves to make him a machine to fly across the landscapes, rather than having to wade through bogs or evade mountains, to this meeting. Oh how much he hated these meetings and councils about nonsense. The worst part is any idea that Thad had was completely destroyed and left as an empty shell and given back to him. He didn’t want to take another idea home destroyed, defeated, and worthless.

Looking across the small city of Claddath he could feel the eerie sense that one day this city would be changed by his hand. Of course he was the leader of the land, but he knew that the idea of creation that he had would bolster economy, create strong defense, and of course it would make him seem a god amongst men. That was the more important part, and that is to become immortalized. Gods amongst men did exist thousands of years ago. They are fables and tales that were passed down from father to child for centuries. Thad one day will be more than just a fable passed down, but a truth and an idea.

His ideas of course could come back to others as twisted or evil, but he knew them as beauty. Why could one take an idea that is completely sound and then say back to him that it is ungodly and one must be destroyed with these ideas. Every year this council joins together the lands of the east and the islands and he seems to fall into the back and never participate in these events, due to prior years of failure and rejection. This year will be different.

The city was bustling as Thad turned his Kripnota to leave the city. The peasants gathered along the edges of the street to wave their leader fair well. Men bowed before him, others made small explosions of earth in the air as they manipulated the spirit within the dirt. Each element has a soul shard, an element that drives it to exist. Thad was leader because he understood and could do anything with his ability of manipulating the earth to do as he will. It was the complete control that made him feel Godlike. He could never control the followers to do as he would like he could the rocks and mountains. He could never complain about this due to the fact that they are willing to follow him.

* * * * *

The country after two weeks began to wear Thad down. He disliked the appearance of the blood colored water, and the grey brown grass that spurted randomly throughout the hill side. He could only remember bits and pieces of the war that was waged between man and elf. He was only a child then and it seemed to be just a dream to a small boy in the country at the time. Elves and humans were once willing to work with each other to help create a world of peace and harmony. Humans then were sheltered from magic for their “protection” as the elves called it. Humans felt squandered by the race and felt they deserved to wield powers as the elves did. Soon the Elvin council stood together and created a way for the humans to learn to control elemental spirits. At least this is as far as Thad has gathered over the years.

The elves placed a block on the human cognitive control skills so as to protect them from dividing themselves with the magic. If one were to wield too much at a time it could render his soul from his body and leave an empty shell to be consumed by the slumbering dragons. No one knew where these dragons were or whether a man had ever been occupied by these shape shifting creatures, and by these thoughts. Thad felt that they were created by the elves to create fear in the human kind so as to control them to not go wandering into other realms of magic.

Humans were only capable of controlling one source of magic in their life time. If a man born in the country side dedicated to the earth wielders he would be part of that people and would learn the ways of them. If he felt that he could better himself in another aspect of magic he would be stripped of his powers in the original lands. For with the Elvin curse one got limited and would not be able to go on further with the original study or he would surely die. That is how Thad rose the way he did within the earth clan.

He was born in a control group who would be the successors of the throne. One by one the children were to kill the others with the powers they obtained over the years. Fear would strike the hearts of the very grown men that had been there to create them. This led to perfect heartless rulers who understood the powers of mankind. Thad killed all of the children within the first six months of the control group and so the king himself trained Thad since he was the age of eleven. This meant that he had been in the palace for far too long but no one could surpass his powers and that gave him he confidence that there would be no need for a successor if his plot came true today.

“I can see the clockworks from here turning in that strange head of yours Thaddeos” said the over boisterous voice. He had the deep ringing to it like it was built inside a large barrel of a chest. Thad rolled his eyes to the sky cursing his existence. He loathed this person for all that he stood for, his cocky attitude, his confidence in himself. He was arrogant. Foolish. He never thought before acting and this made him a plain brute. This would probably be the best description for those of Baerghel the land of Fire.

“I can see that you are as pleased to see me as I am you,” Thad said eyeing Markis Binner from over his shoulder. The perfectly set hair with his helm to his side as he strode on top of his strong brown horse clearly marked Markis as an arrogant, but impressive leader. The horse stood at least two feet higher than Thad’s own mount but he knew that his earth beast could muscle its way through any climate change, whereas a horse suffered from the conditions much quicker, “How has your journey been?”

“The same as it has been year after year old friend.” Mark said clapping his hand to belt and turning his steed toward the white walls of Maerret the city of water. The outer cloister would cover miles if one could see that far. But standing in the center of the city as tall as the eye could see were the distinct spires of the fortress where within the beautiful Seren stayed. The water kingdom never understood the need of the earth clan.

Each group within the magic realms played a part to help the survival of the humans. Ever since the war of eleven thousand years the land had been scarred by the elves so as to eliminate the human’s abilities and prevent them from continuing their destructive habits. Water was scorched with a blood curse to make it undrinkable. Plants suffered from the lack of water and soon poisons replaced fruits and vegetables, offspring from the blood ridden hills of Arnea. Thad smiled to himself, he knew that if the humans kept at the rate they were soon they would own Baelki and Arnea’s very existence would be theirs.

The water clan was in charge of cleansing water from blood to make it drinkable to sustain life. Without the earth clan crops would not be able to grow and this would limit people from being able to sustain life from the food that it produced. The wind clan cleaned the air from the poisons that were administered from the corroding hillsides. Fire was needed to create the actual steel, fortresses, and habitats that the humans lived in, and those of the spirit were there as the natural born leaders to guide and assist in the actual understanding and passing of knowledge. Thad learned these roles since a child and cherished the idea that he didn’t have to live on his own, but as he grew older he realized they could easily be manipulated by each clan if one clan decided not to participate correctly with natural procedures.

Thad smiled at the idea and turned his beast to follow the edges of the white walls. He was hoping to see the gates to the city filled with onlookers as he and Mark strode in, but to his dismay they stood empty. Since before Thad joined the council the last two groups to show up were the fire clan and the earth clan, and he always was left disappointed by the idea of being nearly forgotten. He wouldn’t complain too much for it helped him keep the atmosphere of either a perfect late arrival to stop a rash decision from being made, or from preventing some outburst that would result in a disconnection from the alliance.

“The city is dead as usual Thad … isn’t it?” Markis said. His voice startled Thad so much that his heart raced and he felt the hairs on the back of his neck rise at the ominous sound coming from the empty streets.

“Yes… yes it is Mark.”

“I suppose that the council has already started the party without us, how do you feel about making it noticeable this year?”

“I myself enjoy being conservative.” Thad said glaring a bit to the left and right of the street scanning for any person to be watching them. During the events of the council’s meeting often the people stay indoors and don’t work so as to create peace for the decisions. To Thad it felt a bit indifferent and he wasn’t pleased with the fact that there was not even the sound of a babe crying. He understood the need for quiet in some situations, but in this very large city not even the sound of a horses neigh made one recognize the ringing sound in one’s own ears, “Let’s just get into the meeting and pledge our ideas to the council and get this over with.”

* * * * * * *

The council gathered inside of the large hall of the capital city Maerret. Statues lined the walls of Seren Wilnateen and Thad felt that highly inappropriate for a council of the different clans to be gathered in this city instead of gathering in some hall created specifically for these meetings. No instead Thad had to stare at the over scaled bust of Seren. She felt that she was the fairest lady to have been born; it was true in Thad’s eyes. She was amazing in every aspect and that is the part that pushed him over the edge. He wanted her in more ways then she would ever allow him to express.

Looking over his should he eagerly glanced at the robed figures in the benches. The council of five was being audited by select governors of the clans. Thad glanced at them with distaste for these beings found themselves in a room where only the best belonged, and Thad was the best and he knew these men were not.

“That sounds like an excellent idea Seren; we can double our efforts to produce a counter to the religious movement of the non magical kind of the southern kingdoms.” Alexis stated. Words could not describe the cool, calm, serene attitude this man had. His eyes showed cool white milk edging the black empty abyss that would be called his pupil. One could be absorbed by his gaze without even realizing that had been staring far too long, “Thad what proposition do you have for the council this year. I heard from your fellow councilmen that this is a rather unique and trustworthy idea, so please don’t disappoint me.”

“Ah, um… you... er.” Thad lost his train of thought when he heard Alexis address him so. His heart fluttered as those milky eyes gazed him over and of course Seren breathing down his neck and Markis thinking that he and Thad had planned the whole thing together.

“I assume you want to speak to us in English Thad, I haven’t found myself well studied in the language that you chose to address me in.” A slow whispered laugh began to roll in the room as Thad’s face flushed with the mocking tone Alexis chose to speak to him with.

“That is Alexis, that I have a proposition for creation.”

“Creation? This intrigues me, do explain.”

“I am referring to creating and spawning a new race. We with each element have the power to create something living and controllable and create ourselves to become the owners of Arnea. I am pledging that with my ability in the Alchemistic community and with the dwarven alliance we gather the elements and create a beast that isn’t fully human but will have the cognitions and abilities of us so as to be the perfect soldier to pull the useless Pale Tipped Ears down from their hiding spots and address us THE TRUE OWNERS OF ARNEA.” As he stood to his feet toward the end of his speech, the crowd went into complete silence. Thad could hear his own heartbeat in his ears as Alexis eyed him with the idea.

“You mean to tell me you expect that each clan participate in creating a creature that you claim can be controlled if we combine all five elements, alchemy, and mechanics? Wouldn’t this create a being that we as humans would be considered inferior to? Mixing elements together into one being and make it Elf like by being able to wield all spirit shards, and not only that but be able to understand, learn and grow. This would create an opposition to the elves but it would also create a higher threat to us humans being the weaker race on the land.” Alexis’ words rang in Thad’s head as Alexis’ voice began to raise with each fact that he pointed out to Thad, “We as humans have been fighting to prove that we are superior, and ideas like this one create the idea that we are only a middle man unable to fight for ourselves and rely fully upon others to do our bidding. I will not stand for me, those of the alliance who is with me?”

One by one the audience members stood along with the other council members. Thad’s face grew hot and red from the rejection he just received, “I will prove it to you Fellow brethren.” With that note Thad turned his back on the council and strode off through the open doors where four guards had overheard the entire confrontation. They had axes and swords drawn and pointed them toward the room prepared to strike if the situation began to heat up more than it had.

One day the council would bow before Thad’s mind. They would realize that he was stronger than they were and had a better ability in many aspects of the elements. From bending and creating the very existence of what was present with the ability of Alchemy or whether it be engineering and manufacturing a different life source. He would find the loop holes to the missing elements in his creation. The Tieflings would be born. They would exist. He would have to find a link to the elements.

It was in that moment that Thad realized that there was a link between humans and the elements. It would be a bit inhumane, but that captured Thad in one word. Inhumane. He was going to stride into a realm yet never before fathomed. The link between the pale tipped ears, those evil wicked elves were not far from beast. Therefore what difference would it make then trying to create a human engineered with the elements than try to create a human mixed with the missing link between the elements and create an unstoppable beast that would be controlled by the single command of one man. Thad smiled to himself as he stepped into the brisk air of the water city. Rain fell on his face, and he raised his eyes to the heavens to see the floating islands in the sky. Baelki would soon be reaching its end and that day drew near by the work of Thad.

22 March 2011

Here I am again

Well here I am blogging again. I don't much enjoy writing but I might as well have some form of Journal in my life since I was told that its important that I do it. Any whom, life has been going as normal. My job hasn't changed, no one is really doing anything different here, and life is getting quiet.

The past few days we have been watching Aubrey's brothers dogs at his girlfriends house. OMG they have this evil demon dog. It runs around and eats everything that we own. It destroyed my pajamas, Under Armour, and Shoes.... I don't know what on earth they do to train it, but it isn't learning anything at all.

Any whom, we also had a nice get away to Salt Lake. We had a nice hotel stay, and we were able to visit the zoo. I love the zoo and I know pretty much anyone else does too. I want some of the little cats of the zoo though, they looked like house cats and leopards mixed together, that would be so awesome to come home too!

Well as for now I just kinda sit at work and try to ignore the awkward conversations of my coworkers. Soon it will be quiet enough that I can write a bit on my story.

15 March 2011

I never Blog :)

well my wife looks at me and says "You never blog". Yup its true. I don't blog haha. So I am going to try and do a post of how I have been dealing with stress lately. We decided to move into a new place. Thats kinda cool. I like having a new feeling to situations. Getting away from our psycho upstairs neighbors that only yelled at their 4 month old baby rather than actually trying to help it stop crying (IE. holding the baby, feeding the baby, or talking to the baby). We are now moving into a place that has two bedrooms for space. NO AUBREY IS NOT PREGNANT. Its merely a space factor. We have way too many toys for a newly wed couple ranging from an Alien Ware computer to a flat screen TV. So of course we have to have the space to be able to live comfortably. Hence the new two bedroom place.

Its amazing and beautiful. We got the place painted in 3 days time. We had help from our old ward, and misc. Missionaries. It was kinda chaotic cause most of them didn't know what they were doing. Then we had Tod Olsen, and Aubrey's mom just step in and finish up trims and doors the following day. It was most enjoyable for I found that both Aubrey and I watched about 9 movies in those two days while painting. After said event we then moved onto pack.

As for the packing it was nuts. Aubrey had most of the house packed and we then rented a U-Haul and got most of the equipment moved over. Then on Sunday my parents helped us pack up the rest of the little things to move it into the new place. Now we are buried in boxes and are trying to find out what belong where. I myself have the daunting task of the kitchen articles. I feel a bit overwhelmed but that is life isn't it? As for the life itself its treating me happily.

We got two little hamsters that are completely adorable. They are called "Robos" which is a Russian dwarf hamster. They are named lemony snicket and chuck palahniuk. They are little rambunctious creatures that decided to dump their whole water bottle out in their cage yesterday and poor Aubrey had to try to clean the hamster cage for the first time in her life yesterday. She had a tough time catching the little guys and putting them into the hamster balls. She was very stressy that they were going to get sick and die. They are okay now and they have official made their little house under the bedding and enjoy sleeping during the day and running in the wheel at night.

As for me I am still working on writing. I had writers block for a bit and couldn't figure out how to word the next section of the story. I do have 4 chapters completed and a couple people have read through them though. I hope to get the first book done by December.

And as for Fake Safety Tips its on hold until the recording studio can be set back up again since the move has made impossible to try and get a Mic and guitar set up. But please do feel free to continue supporting us we do have future music coming out soon!

04 February 2011

Bad Moon on the Rise

So here we go again. Day two of horrible events that are making life just that much more difficult. I am told that the reason why I had my loans taken off was due to not satisfactory academic achievement and now I have to pay them all the loan's back, pell grant, and any extra that was given to me. So I have to go apply for a loan from the bank today.... I hope that I at least get some sort of assistance from them. Secondly as I climb out of my house to drive off to work, I was doing just fine... life was feeling ok even though there is a problem with money. I hop in my car, crank it over, sit there for a minute to warm up, and then I try to drive away. Flat tire. Thats right a flat tire.

Now I have to go to the bank apply for a loan, get my tires replaced, and try to find out what to do with money situations. The best part of the story is I work at 10:00... I had to call in so there is money lost when I can't go to work. Its like either A) life hates me B) God wants to teach me something or C) I just have the worst luck. I am assuming its all of the above.

Any way I am just kinda tired of trial after trial right now, its like somehow my plans in life are not coming out right and there is a lot of weight on my shoulders that I don't know how to fix it right now.

03 February 2011


So here we go onto a trip and a story of my life and the world of money. I hate money. I think it is retarded and only causes fights, problems, and stress. Look at all the good that comes from money. We have people that fight and kill just to get more. Those with more money act like they rule the world. Lastly when one is short on money for something their life goes in shambles and they become desperate to find out a solution. This can lead to serious consequence.

Don't get me wrong I am doing well financially. I am stable and able to pay my bills and still collect savings. The Problem with my finances is my schooling right now. This is the most redundant school that I have attended... I understand I am partial to blame.

Last semester wasn't my best semester at the school I am attending. I had a rough time studying and I fell ill for the first two weeks of classes and I even had to call in sick to work for almost the whole period I was ill. So my grades sank no matter what I tried. My classes were based on attendance and missing over 6 days in each class resulted in my grade going from an A to a C.... so even after trying to do makeup homework my grades weren't passing... I failed it out.
now this is where it gets bad. I apply for the spring semester and the school says I have to file for academic Probation to improve study habits. I agree and pass the test to reapply for classes in the spring. Everything went fine. I was approved for my loans, I got a change check. All was paid for, books were ok and I felt comfortable. Well I then review my finances tab on our internal College website and it claims that I owed fifteen hundred dollars. I review the reason why. The pell grant that I was given and that had already been cut in a check they claimed that I needed to pay it back. Ok I understand if I didn't have satisfactory grades for a pell grant then they shouldn't have approved a pell grant and cut the check in the first place. Luckily I had all the money stored in savings.

Here is the catch. Even though I had all this approved and I was clear for the loans, today they rebuked my loans and say I owe over 6K.... 6K! I don't have that money, not even per semester does it cost 6K.... where am I supposed to come up with the money for this problem. Next on my hate is my phone is dead so I can't even call to find out what is going on in the finances office of the campus. So I have to wait until I get to a charger after my classes, but with my cramped schedule I have no free time. I am either studying, or working 32 hours a week. Combined with studying, school, and work I have roughly 20 hours a week to myself. Of these 20 hours I can't be selfish because I also like to spend time with my wife, so I dedicate at least 10 of these hours to her. That leaves me with 10 hours in a 7 day week. That is just a little more than 1 hour a day. This hour normally is at about 11 PM. EVERYTHING IS CLOSED.
I am so frustrated right now cause this means that I have to take time off work to find out why my college is trying to screw me over financially and mess up my credit score. I wish that money didn't exist and that I didn't have to fret about these problems. I already have a huge workload as it is....

21 January 2011


I am a music enthusiast.  I have to say that I get all excited and butterflies when I see new albums of my favorite bands coming out.  I recently have dedicated my homepage of my web browser to PureVolume.com  Its a site focused on the new bands.  Mainly alternative rock but it has other fields in it if you are interested in peaking your head over (Both of the bands that I am promoting on this blog have pages with songs there).  Recently I saw posts from a band that made me super excited.  I then was able to listen to a sample portion and it has a lot of potential to be amazing!  Panic at the disco is a good band and I hope to get the fan base that is full of crazed enthusiasts like me.

Here is a link if you feel like checking them out a bit www.purevolume.com/panicatthedisco

anywhom as a side note of my music addiction I have thousands of gigabytes of Cd's on my computer.  I then choose to carry a few with me on my iPod, and I also have my songs all lined up on my laptop and work computer so I constantly have music at any given moment of the day.  Well due to the fact that I have an iPod I need to have iTunes.  This is a nightmare.  I hate that program so much, and it takes hours and days to try to organize your music.  Once that task is done its actually a very relaxed media player to use for every day tasks.  But when you import 80 plus gigs all at one time it takes forever to assign albums, song titles, and not to mention the horrid cluster of unknown artists that I get every time I copy music from my external hard drive.  So I finally organized my Work computer and am about 3/4 done with my laptop... but I still have my main personal computer to clean up.... oh the troubles of my life due to my vices.

20 January 2011

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I have taken the liberty of attending college.  Sadly I had the horrible experience with an electronic online based math class that resulted in a 0.2% less than the required grade to pass the class.  I then attempted to retake the class this current semester but they said I was under qualified and I am now in a lower math class than my actual ability.  I attended my class for the first time last week on Tuesday.  The professor didn't even know what Pi is... I am stuck in this class for a whole semester.  That is time that I cannot take back that I have to dedicate every Tuesday and Thursday.  What a dilemma I am in.  So to keep myself occupied today I pulled out my handy dandy laptop and began to work a bit on the story that I am working on as I previously mentioned in my prior blog.  I actually finished chapter one and I am almost done with chapter two.  I am feeling quite proud of myself.

Also for other note last night Fake Safety Tips got together and started working a bit on the new sound for the new album and we think we might have found an idea that we were looking for.  I just need to work a bit on the engineering of the piece.  I will soon be posting music on the blog for all of those who wish to listen to some of our work : )

I wish too all of you that have had to deal with horrible classes in any schooling that you have a wonderful day and remember that you are the one with the control of what you do during these courses.  If you choose to sleep that is just squandering your ability to become creative or smarter in dreams that will never come true, where you can realize actual dreams while giving off the appearance that you are actually a learning enthusiast.  So whether you do art during classes, writing, or working on other classes homework that I say is the best way to waste your time.

Once again I am not much of an enthusiast for others knowing my ideology but I figured family and friends deserve a bit more contact with me than what they are currently receiving.


Well I am not much of a journal keeper, or am I much of an enthusiast for sharing every thing I do to people that have dedicated time to sit down and stalk me (Facebook, twitter, etc.). But for the sake of keeping reality in check for family members and friends who are interested in seeing where my life is progressing I will take the time out of my life to share with you my passions and desires.

For those of you who have not yet had the displeasure of getting to know me I will share a tidbit of my ideology. I am a dreamer who believes in living big. I love music, movies, dances, plays, shows, magic, and anything that mystifies and creates an alternate reality of what we are truly living. I aspire to be an artist in my life, no matter the aspect.

As a child my sister and I grew up and decided to write a story together that I have actually harbored for my own and decided to create it as my own. I hope that she isn't upset with me since she has been practically pouring over her own story for the past 10 years with one of her childhood friends.

Secondly I also write music with a friend of mine where we have actually recorded and I produced the CD. we are reaching a large fan base online and you can check out our music free on Facebook, last. FM, and pure volume. We have a small radio station set up online and we are working on a second album.

This site you are on is actually part of my second side project band titled a paper heart parade. A solo project not meant to overshadow the original band or take any thunder from it.

lastly I am an artist. I love drawing and watercoloring. nothing too special but I will share links at the end of this post if you feel like spending a couple more minutes exploring what I do, since I am more a visionary creature as apposed to one who is known through contextual meeting.

If you have questions I probably won't answer them but I hope that if you do decide to stalk me on this little posting that you get some pleasure and enjoyment from my rattlings. As for now I bid you Adieu my friends.


Fake Safety Tips the Band

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